WOOZZAAHH...

After a month of paranoia--blood came out somewhere...Thank God. He still knows I need to see that red thing out of my body. Ok I know you're wondering what blood am I talking about. You know, that nasty red thing that should be coming out of girls' you know.. every month, but in my case is always hesitating to come out and only decides to see the outside world after 5 freaking months when I already exhausted my mind of thinking why am I not having my period!!! so....woooozzzzzzzzzzaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh.... hehe...sigh of relief.

(subliminal message included) =)

rollercoaster vs.bungee

Am I being cursed or what? When I was six yrs old, I remember praying to Him about those sins I keep on committing and then tell Him."please help me stop" and after years.. one day..I prayed again and told Him about those sins I keep on committing and said "please help me stop." And on and on and on. I kept on praying, but I also kept on telling the same thing. "please help me stop" I've been through a lot in this roller coaster ride that scares me to death. And everytime I'm in those loop part. I scream. Aloud. Im 22 years old and forever praying and asking " why aren't you answering me. Why do I have to pass all these big loops that I can't handle and so always end up throwing up at one corner.Exhausted and dizzy. I wanted to have that kind of roller coaster that just goes straight. Yeah,weird. i should've just said I wanted to ride on a speed train like that one in Japan. But no. I still want to call my ride a roller coaster. Only, it goes straight but fast. Thrill is still there. I still have to scream but I'm not gonna throw up anymore and get those teary eyes. I don't want any of those. and so, I'm still praying "why can't my life be something totally happy..not sort of, kinda, somewhat happy. I've sinned big time because I'm weak. I thought--how could I be strong, when I feel like nobody's holding onto me. Ok enough of roller coaster, I might just get into the bunjee and fall free.

BAKIT MASARAP ANG TOKWA

...kahit walang lasa...???iprito mo at isawsaw sa suka na may toyo tapos lagyan ng konting asukal at ng sibuyas...yummmm...nagluto kc ako nung isang araw nun at dun lang natuklasan ng marami kong mga kamag-anak na raised dito sa US na nag "tofu" eh masarap pala..kahit walang lasa..well, ibig sabhin masarap ang sawsawan dahil kung walang lasa ang tofu, sawsawan ang nagpasarap.malinaw ba? alam ko nga hinde ..pero basta pag pinirito ang tokwa.masarap.kahit walang lasa..=) subukan niyo!!!! hehe....wala akong magawa..namiss ko lang magpost dito...dahil nawawalan na ng saysay ang blog ko dahil sa trabaho..some time soon, I'll put something more interesting..maliban sa paggawa ng masarap na tokwa at sawsawan..