DIGITAL LOVE

(beep) hi baby. i love you.... (message sent) i love you too baby.... (beep) can't wait to see you! (message) what time do we meet?...5 hours have passed and silence have engulfed the whole room. the whole anticipation to hear that sound again is excruciating. somehow the clock seemed to have taken its course slower than it should. five grueling hours... and still nothing. oh that feeling... the agony....

(message sent) hey what's up?
(message sent)are you ok?
(message sent) why aren't you replying
(message sent) what the heck are you doing??!!!!

aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....!!!!

the other end might've run out of memory space, freaked out and wondering "what have just happened there?" all i can remember is, the last two hours i've been on a strictly no cell phone on meeting, and the next three stuck with the elderly people who couldn't wait to have their diapers changed...." what a life...


on the other end is a girl exhausted of all the waiting... not just the waiting, but the burden of convincing herself nothing fishy is happening on the other end of the line. just normal circumstances that deserve to happen without being questioned.

then is this what we call love on the digital age? the relationship between a guy and girl depend so much on messages they have and receive on their SIM cards, memory cards, emails, comments and forced adorations on myspace, friendster, facebook etc...etc...??? i know for a moment, i do think so... i've been a victim of this foolish situation. i was so wired and connected to all media you could think of to keep in touch with my loved one and take advantage of the ease to not only keep in touch with him but to keep track of everything he does even without his consent and knowledge. this is not what love is suppose to be. i knew that from the very start. but the access to everything is almost under your nose. ready to be discovered in just a few clicks. convenient, yes it is!!! and that's what's tempting to us to delve into someone's life, all the more the life of the one closest to your heart. sometimes our gadgets at hand become some sort of metric system of our relationships. if you get more calls and texts messages, one could equate it to being loved so much rather than getting to enjoy a bunch of flowers from that special someone once in a while with longer lasting effect. if at 12 noon your loved one religiously sends an i love you message to your phone and all of a suddent failed to do so but made it up to you by giving you a call at 3pm, one could still judge the person not so loving.... or your loved one get to call a random person at 11:56 and hung up the phone on you at 11:55 coz he said he's taking a rest... one could've done worst by judging the person a cheater. and the likes are happening a lot... one misjudgment after another....

this is tiring!!! this is not the kind of love our grandma and grandpa shared when they we're younger. our dad and mom shared moments of happiness even when their miles apart and their only means of communication is a snail mail or a 5 kilometer run to another town. but they shared love without computers, cell phones and all that jazz. and trust was not compromised even if they don't have hidden web cams to spy on them when they're out socializing at church. they got none of these before and they trusted each other. they loved each other without all the conveniences in life. they created a bond between each other that's beyond our imagination without the help of our modern gadgets. and... they still trusted each other.


our generation is indeed lucky to have all these conveniences at our fingertips. it would've been a different and difficult world to deal with without our cell phones and computers. but i realized that these are not gadgets to weigh the traffic of love between two people. they are for sure an easier way to express words, but love shouldn't be weighed as to how much our special someone remembers us through text messages or emails. it shouldn't be scaled depending on who got your loved one's first text message of the day...or who got his first call. life should be lived as it is, and shouldn't be stopped all the time because we need a moment to tinker with our phones or computers.

i realized, i should stop and smell the flowers. enjoy what the day has to offer and feel deep inside my heart that i am loved... even if another (beep) i love you baby... doesn't come.